I’m remembering how much time seems to expand and how tons of stuff gets done when I step away from the booze. I’ve been procrastinating less about the routine stuff like cooking, laundry and dishes. Today I managed to put up two pinboards in my home office which I’ve been wanting to do for months. This has cleared a bit of space in the spare room where the pinboards were being stored. It also means I’ve moved all the sketches, colour charts etc off my desk and onto the wall, leaving my desk fairly tidy.
I’ve also updated my satnav which I’ve been meaning to do for ummm… four years!
What strikes me as ridiculous is how easy these small jobs actually are so how the hell can I have put them off for so long? Why spend four years driving around and swearing at dodgy satnav directions when finding the right cable and plugging it into my laptop for an update took about ten minutes? It’s crazy.
I’ve come to the conclusion that my sober head seems to be able to simply take one thing at a time without over complicating things. My drinking / recovering from a drinking session head would have thought of all the possible problems with, for example, the simple job of putting the pinboards up:
‘I don’t know where the hammer / nails / string / hanging hooks are and can’t be bothered to look for them…’
‘I might not put them up level…’
‘It might be one of the rooms where the plaster is still the original victorian stuff that bends nails because it’s so hard…’and so on…
Yes, I had to hunt down all the necessary tools and bits for the job but it didn’t take that long. No, they’re not perfectly level but now they’re covered in sheets of A4 I don’t notice at all. Yes, it was the horrible old plaster that’s like concrete and it took me a few nails to poke deep enough to get a stable grip but I got there in the end. And yes, I now get to feel ridiculously pleased with myself for getting it done rather than deciding it’s all too much hassle and getting drunk instead.
Each job I tackle in my home and daily life feels like a step towards a simple and organised life. Each day I don’t drink feels like a step towards a simple and organised mind. It feels good đŸ™‚
tired of treading water 
It’s interesting how much space those old thoughts took up.
I was the same. So many things just seemed insurmountable or overwhelming.
At one point I hadn’t done my taxes for 3 years. And the government owed me money.
I still like to procrastinate sometimes, it is one of my flaws, lol, but it is usually because I have better things to do, not because the job is too hard.
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And when the better things to do is no longer a euphemism for getting stuck in to a bottle of wine, that’s definitely a better thing to do!
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Really good points, and well put. Taking care of one’s health and home seem just a little more “worth it” too when sober. What used to inspire a “what’s the point” response from my head now comes out more like “because I deserve to feel relaxed in my home and like I have my s– together.”
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Yes to the relaxing at home part! Chaos and clutter in my environment mess with my head and undermine my calm.
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