Day 58, matched my PB

This is as long as I managed early last year before I fell over on day 59. Tomorrow will be the longest I’ve been without alcohol in my adult life. It’s a personal best! It may not get me an olympic medal but I feel like I’m stepping up onto my own winner’s podium 😀

I’m starting to think a bit less about the whole not drinking thing. Moments of cravings still pop up out of the blue but when that’s not happening my mind is less preoccupied, unlike a short few weeks ago. A quoted line from a book that was reviewed in this blog post by Good Choices really resonated with me yesterday. ‘Drinking alcohol with your mind isn’t freedom’. It was reading this that prompted me to realise that my obsessive thinking is easing off somewhat. It’s not gone entirely, but it’s not at the forefront of my mind. It’s a relief.

I’ve just been for another round of blood tests this morning. I did go to my doctor’s about the dizziness and I was overdue on my annual thyroid check anyway. I had an absolute superstar phlebotomist who managed to get blood out on the first attempt – multiple attempts in each arm is not unheard of with me. As it was a fasting blood test and I have a different sleep pattern than most people it worked out that I hadn’t eaten or had any coffee for 15 hours. I was ravenous and had a mahoosive coffee withdrawal headache on the way to the hospital so I took a jammy scone and a flask of coffee in the car with me for afterwards.

The hospital is fairly close to a nice canal area so after troughing my scone in the car I took the coffee to the waterside. It was a nice change. I love water. I’d love to live by a big lake or the sea but that’s not realistic for now. The sun was surprisingly hot given it was still early morning and I got to chuckle at the hundreds of hopeful duck, swan and pigeon eyes trained on my carrier bag that they were sure must contain some bread. It’s a classic feed the ducks spot so it’s understandable.

I’ve been wanting to expand my cooking repertoire into fermented foods for some time now. This is the next thing that I’m going to experiment with in the spare time that is opened up by sobriety. Today I’m going to have a first attempt at making sauerkraut. It’s a strange concept really. Take some cabbage and salt, mush it all together, pack it in a jar and let it rot. I always wonder about the people that invented this sort of thing back in the day. I can do it with a degree of confidence because it’s an old tradition that’s been passed along the generations and the science of it is understood. Imagine being the first person to try it though without any of those reassurances.

That’s just reminded me of an interesting concept I heard during a recent podcast – I forgot which one though :/ Somebody was positing the theory that the genetic tendency to hedonic addiction which is a disadvantage in modern society was actually an advantage in our early ancestors. The modern day alcoholics and addicts would back then be the pioneers within a group of humans. We’d be the ones to walk further, hunt longer and fight harder for something that would bring pleasure or enhancement to their lives. It’s an interesting theory but I don’t know how much truth it holds. I like the idea of being a pioneer though. Moving into a life of sobriety certainly feels like being on a frontier at times 😀

Well, my fellow pioneering sober peeps, I’m going to shut up now and go do violent things to a cabbage. Have a lovely sober weekend all and extra hugs and strength to anybody struggling x

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14 thoughts on “Day 58, matched my PB

  1. HabitDone August 12, 2016 / 6:52 pm

    Congrats on getting to this point. Seems appropriate to be breaking records right now! I am laughing about the cabbage….my hubby LOVES to ferment! Always saves the pasta jars to pickle stuff. He routinely does lemons, limes, onions, squash etc. I let him do the saurkraut….once…I finally banished it outside…a bit telling that no animals tried to eat it….lol…but he loved it!

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    • tiredoftreadingwater August 13, 2016 / 2:44 am

      Thank you HD! My sauerkraut has only been sitting a few hours so I’ve yet to experience any interesting smells. It sounds like I have a lot to learn about what can be pickled 😀

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  2. thenewnewguy August 12, 2016 / 8:21 pm

    Very similar to my story — I made it just past 50 days the first time around before stumbling. I’m at 125 now and so happy, so take weak-willed me as proof that it can be done! Congrats on reaching a personal best and keep going. The path gets easier, the views are better, the sun shines more brightly further down the path. Just keep going!

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  3. Lily 🌷 August 13, 2016 / 12:44 pm

    Keep going ! Great that you have a goal in experimenting with fermenting ! Xx

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    • tiredoftreadingwater August 18, 2016 / 11:14 am

      Thanks Lily! I think I’m going to be fermenting everything in sight in the next few weeks 😀 x

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  4. No good wineing August 14, 2016 / 1:58 am

    I love fermented foods, so good for the gut. My favourite is kimchi as it has a kick to it. Congratulations on your milestone.

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    • tiredoftreadingwater August 14, 2016 / 8:19 am

      Thank you! I’m on a huge experimental mission to sort out my gut. I’ve seen a few recipes for kimchi, it’s definitely on my list 😀

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  5. soberisland August 14, 2016 / 3:24 pm

    Happy day 60 to us! If I went to meetings I could get a chip. So instead I will just celebrate here with you 🙂 I don’t know about sauerkraut but the best of luck to you. I’m glad you went to the doctor too. I was listening to a podcast with a girl talking about hashimoto and it sounds awful. I admire you for your good attitude because I would definitely be feeling sorry for myself. Take care

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    • tiredoftreadingwater August 14, 2016 / 7:19 pm

      Yayy! Happy day 60 to you too 😀 The sauerkraut seems to be progressing but it does stink. Hashimoto’s does suck but I try to keep in mind there are many worse things to have. Hugs 🙂 x

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  6. nomore4116 August 18, 2016 / 2:04 am

    Happy belated day 60!! So proud of you.
    Also, I’m now incredibly inspired to ferment foods. Sauerkraut sounds like an easy place to start. And I know what you mean, I wonder about all of the foods we eat. Who realized we could fry an egg for example? Did they just eat them raw and then voila, someone dropped theirs in the fire lol?

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  7. tiredoftreadingwater August 18, 2016 / 11:20 am

    Thank you 🙂 I wish I’d fermented stuff years ago, it’s ridiculously easy. I’ve got a picture in my mind now of somebody grunting after their lost egg. Can you imagine all the barfing, stomach aches etc (and probably quite a lot of dying) that went on as our ancestors weeded out what we couldn’t digest… euww! x (oops that was supposed to be a reply to you nomore but I did it as a new commment)

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