Why not today?

This morning I got home after work with an aching shoulder and the feeling that I may be heading ino a stomach bug. It was a long, hard night. People were cranky and arguing and the manager moped around with a face like a slapped arse. Maybe the heat is getting to everybody? I don’t know. Despite this, the poetry muse decided to make an appearance. Seriously?! Now?! I know better than to ignore it so I got a pen and pad and off I went.

Last night I was thinking loads about a few of the recent blogs posts I’ve read. Some were from new people contemplating the possibility of quitting.  Some were from the newly sober and doubt-ridden and some from people returning for another sobriety attempt. I think this poem was inspired by you and is for you all. It’s quite long and gets a little dark but as I still have no idea where it comes from, you can complain to whoever is pushing these words into my head ;D


Why not today?

You are going to quit, just not today

What’s the rush? you think

Maybe tomorrow? I hear you say

Wolfie gives me a big sly wink

Or maybe next week? There’s an idea

One last weekend to riot

It’s a busy month, my friends are all here

Maybe next month? Then I’ll be quiet

You don’t think it wise to hurry and push

Life is for living you know

There’s always next year, what’s the big rush?

You’re still only young, time will go slow

Without your permission the years jump ahead

Plans fall apart, dreams fade and die

Yeah, I’ll quit soon, you repeatedly said

Why not today? You glower and sigh

Maybe next decade? That will be time

to slow down and settle myself

Yes, later you say. And then I’ll be fine

I still have my money, my mind and my health

Later creeps in, as quick as a flash

Breaking your body and dimming your sight

The life in your veins a dwindling stash

You’re starting to fear that long dark night

You can’t quit now! You need your best friend

The one that’s two-faced and sold you all lies

Who’s going to comfort me, right till the end?

The one that hid truth and stifled the cries

of your heart in the dark, it’s magic unfound

Your true life unlived, your time has run out

Too many laters, much skirting around

the issue at hand. Too much fear and doubt

I’m leaving you now, the false friend decides

so many will follow you here

My next victim waits for their fantasy ride

Hoping to take away all pain and fear

So long, no hard feelings, it was just a con

but maybe it’s still not too late?

For your heart to flourish and sing its song

For your eyes to open and soul to wake

So scream and shout, grieve and cry

then cast it out, don’t allow it to take

and more of your life, it’s time to fly

So, why not today? It’s worth a try


 

I’ve taken some oregano oil and some grapefruit seed extract which are truly two of the most challenging flavours on the face of the earth. They are both reputed to be potently anti-bacterial, anti-viral and hopefully anti-spending my day puking with my face in the toilet. Fingers crossed! I’m off to bed.

Have a good day folks x

 

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19 thoughts on “Why not today?

    • tiredoftreadingwater June 21, 2017 / 6:32 am

      Thanks Hurrah! I felt very soft hearted and compassionate writing it, I’m glad if it comes through to the reader. I’m feeling much better now thanks xx

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  1. feelingmywaybackintolife June 20, 2017 / 4:15 pm

    “So scream and shout, grieve and cry, then cast it out.”
    Amen to that.

    Hope you are feeling ok. Wishing you good health.
    xx, Feeling

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 21, 2017 / 6:35 am

      Thanks feeling, it was one of those weird puke and then feel fine again straight after things. I’m feeling good again today. I hope you’re having a good, healthy day too xx

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      • feelingmywaybackintolife June 21, 2017 / 1:45 pm

        Whoops, I’ll just put this bar of chocolate aside then… I was actually planning on having a good healthy day but I have to do the whole quitting again over again on the subject of chocolate. 😦
        I do dislike it but there is a funny thing to it: I get to re-learn how I was in denial with alcohol. So that is good. 🙂
        Glad you are feeling better. Puking is a good reflex of the body. 🙂
        xx, Feeling

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      • tiredoftreadingwater June 21, 2017 / 5:58 pm

        I turn into a total 5 year old when I have to puke, I hate it but sometimes it’s necessary and unavoidable. I’ve been having a chocolate struggle recently too, it’s another one of my all or nothing things *sigh* xx

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 21, 2017 / 6:44 am

      Thank you so much Mark, I’m happy that you enjoyed it. The whole writing poetry thing has been the biggest surprise within sobriety 😀

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