Day 5 – feeling good

This will be short as I’m feeling comfortable and mellow but not really in a writing mood. I’m feeling good on day 5. The sensation of relief is still there and I feel subtly different in some way that I don’t fully understand – it’s a very good thing though.

I haven’t been up very long and it’s early evening. I’ve had a few nights of long shifts and too little sleep. I’ll probably fall asleep on the sofa soon, the circadian pull toward some darkness-hours sleep is strong. I’m very happy that I’ll be doing this sober.

I can still feel the effects of the amazing support I’ve received over the last few days. Although I don’t see or touch or know anybody that I interact with here I’ve sort of sensed your invisible presence in my quieter moments – a presence that understands, and ‘has my back’. Thank you again.

A high five to those in a good place and an outstretched hand to anybody struggling – have a good sober day folks x


Thank you!

I wanted to say thank you for all the wonderfully supportive responses I got from my last post. I had time to read them while I was getting ready for work but not time to respond until this morning. I was incredibly touched by the kind words and loving vibes I felt through those comments. I even got a bit watery eyed. It really did help to lift my spirits during my long night at work.

Yesterday I woke up feeling strangely relieved. I think it was good to finally get that off my chest and accept my situation.

I’m off to bed now. I’m knackered, but it’s a nice kind of tired.

Have a good, sober day x