It’s been a while

Sooo, I’m back again. Hi!

It’s been just over a year since I last posted and I’d love to say I’m still sober and everything is peachy but unfortunately that’s not the case. I let the drinking creep back in and I’ve realised I’m treading water again. I’m not in the kind of terrible, dark place I’ve been plenty of times before, it’s more of a tired remembering that I’ve got distracted and wandered off down the wrong path again. I know what I need to do and I know that I can do it but getting started again isn’t easy.

I know without a doubt that life is better when I don’t drink. I did a year and a half sober. Even during the past year I’ve been sober for good chunks here and there. I have managed a fair bit of moderate drinking but, as is too often the case, that doesn’t last. My tolerance has increased again and I’ve racked up some hideous daily units – like 18 (I think) yesterday ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Fortunately that’s still pretty rare.

I’m fed up of the on again, off again thing and it’s time for a much needed break.

Not much has changed in general. There have been no major life, health or relationship upheavals for which I’m grateful. I still have my crap job, my lovely cat, my hermit-like social life and my ass is a bit fatter which I also need to deal with. I have started selling my creative stuff online which is a super positive step forwards. So far it’s only a tiny amount of income but it’s growing.

It looks like there’s been a few changes here in blogging land. Some familiar faces are still around – hi! Some have disappeared or moved on, hopefully to awesome new adventures. I have a lot to catch up on.

Have a lovely weekend ๐Ÿ™‚

 

 

 

16 thoughts on “It’s been a while

  1. theacquiescentsoul June 7, 2019 / 11:37 pm

    Welcome back. Life has a way of grabbing us and keeping us for a while, doesnโ€™t it? Like you, I canโ€™t say Iโ€™ve been completely sober either. Iโ€™ve not been drunk at all and Iโ€™ve been moderating, but I also realize life is better sober. Maybe we can encourage each other again.

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 7, 2019 / 11:53 pm

      Hi, and thank you for welcoming me back. Life does take some ‘interesting’ twists and turns at times. It sounds like you’ve been in a similar place but doing a bit better than me with not being drunk at all. I’ll definitely offer encouragement on the sober front, no worries there ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Untipsyteacher June 7, 2019 / 11:46 pm

    Hi TOTW!
    Iโ€™m still here! Iโ€™m so glad you are back trying again. Iโ€™m on WP now, so hopefully it will be easier to find me!
    xo
    Wendy

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 8, 2019 / 12:00 am

      Hi Wendy! I’ve just followed you at your new WP home. The intestines story is pretty intense! I’m so glad you’re ok now and I’m happy to see you’re still sober, positive and inspiring! x

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  3. habitdone June 8, 2019 / 3:43 pm

    Life is better sober. If only I could convince the squirrel brain of that. That rabid fool still takes over from time to time but I feel like I’m getting stronger at the whack a mole game. Glad to see you are back!!

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 9, 2019 / 1:22 am

      Haha it is a process of going round in circles at times for sure. Great to hear you’re getting stronger and thanks for the welcome back ๐Ÿ™‚

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  4. Nelson June 8, 2019 / 4:13 pm

    So great to have you back! I’ve sobered up in the interim and let me tell you, the view over here is spectacular. Take up your sword and march on!!! ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ‘

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 9, 2019 / 1:25 am

      Thanks Nelson! I’m so happy for you, things were looking pretty dark in your corner a while back and now it sounds like you’re in a wonderful place ๐Ÿ™‚

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      • Nelson June 9, 2019 / 6:13 am

        Yes, I passed through hell to get here…but I made it. Almost a miracle. I am so grateful.

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  5. S_MW June 15, 2019 / 8:42 am

    First of all…I’m so happy to see you. I’ve missed you!!

    Hopefully being back will be beneficial for you too?

    I so related to what you said here: “I know what I need to do and I know that I can do it but getting started again isnโ€™t easy.” I’ve said the exact same thing in my head, more than once. It’s weird too, because in the beginning I’d beat myself up for saying it MORE than once. Now though, I accept that I’m human and as strong as I mostly am, I am going to have my moments of weakness. Sometimes the moments last seconds, minutes or hours. Other moments are months, but always with the realisation that I’ve DONE IT ONCE. I have the tools now to do it again. I never sit and cry at my weakness these days and actually, I think that’s the most destructive thing you can do to yourself.

    You’ve taken the best step by coming back here. I HOPE that you feel that way too. โคโค

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    • tiredoftreadingwater June 15, 2019 / 9:16 am

      Hey thanks, it’s lovely to see you’re still here too ๐Ÿ™‚ I think it will do me good to blog again, it’s a bit more accountability than I’ve had for a while. I’ll probably only check in every week or so though. I found I was putting too many hours in last time which is one of the reasons I backed away for a while xx

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      • S_MW June 15, 2019 / 9:39 am

        I totally understand that! I’ve been addicted to a number of things in my life, but my addiction to chat rooms was by far the worst, the most destructive to my mental and physical health. It was also the first addiction I addressed and overcame. With this, I don’t feel addicted. I see writing as a necessary aid to my recovery. It’s different for everyone, I know.

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