Sooo, I’m back again. Hi!
It’s been just over a year since I last posted and I’d love to say I’m still sober and everything is peachy but unfortunately that’s not the case. I let the drinking creep back in and I’ve realised I’m treading water again. I’m not in the kind of terrible, dark place I’ve been plenty of times before, it’s more of a tired remembering that I’ve got distracted and wandered off down the wrong path again. I know what I need to do and I know that I can do it but getting started again isn’t easy.
I know without a doubt that life is better when I don’t drink. I did a year and a half sober. Even during the past year I’ve been sober for good chunks here and there. I have managed a fair bit of moderate drinking but, as is too often the case, that doesn’t last. My tolerance has increased again and I’ve racked up some hideous daily units – like 18 (I think) yesterday 😦 Fortunately that’s still pretty rare.
I’m fed up of the on again, off again thing and it’s time for a much needed break.
Not much has changed in general. There have been no major life, health or relationship upheavals for which I’m grateful. I still have my crap job, my lovely cat, my hermit-like social life and my ass is a bit fatter which I also need to deal with. I have started selling my creative stuff online which is a super positive step forwards. So far it’s only a tiny amount of income but it’s growing.
It looks like there’s been a few changes here in blogging land. Some familiar faces are still around – hi! Some have disappeared or moved on, hopefully to awesome new adventures. I have a lot to catch up on.
Have a lovely weekend 🙂